Façade Outtake—Carlisle

Selling tchotchkes in a town so small it wasn't even incorporated was never part of my long-term goals. My life had changed drastically in the past year, and not simply because all the plans I made with Bella went to shit. No, the thanks—and the blame—could be laid on Jasper's shoulders. The prick had paid off his old comáre to claim she witnessed me killing Gianna. I snorted as I thought about it, picking up a brass candlestick and wiping down the glass shelf under it. I pictured taking out a hit on him in the prison they'd buried him in, but, of course, that wouldn't happen. My movements were locked down so tight I couldn't take a crap without the marshals knowing about it. I had done nothing as crass as shooting that puttana in my living room. I was much more inventive than that, and there was absolutely no chance that her body would ever be found.

FAÇADE Epilogue

I am not ashamed anymore

I want something so impure

You better impress now, watching my dress now, fall to the floor

Crawling underneath my skin, sweet talk with a hint of sin

Begging you to take me

Devil underneath your grin, sweet thing, bet you play to win, heaven gonna hate me

~Halsey, Not Afraid Anymore

FAÇADE Chapter 33

Love has no fear, love has no reason

Stop standing on the edge

Take my hand, erase the past forever

Love makes no sense, love has no name

Love is never wrong and never needs a reason

It can make you better

It can change you slowly

~Amy Lee, Love Exists

No lesson needed. Love truly is everything.

FAÇADE Chapter 32

This is Halloween

Red 'n' black, slimy green

Aren't you scared?

Well, that's just fine

Say it once, say it twice

Take a chance and roll the dice

Ride with the moon in the dead of night

Everybody scream, everybody scream

This is Halloween

~Marilyn Manson, This is Halloween

When I would do anything for my girls.

FAÇADE Chapter 31

Storms are raging on a rollin’ sea

Down the highway of regret

The winds of change are blowing wild and free

But you ain’t seen nothing like me yet

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do

Go to the ends of the Earth for you

Make you happy, make your dreams come true

To make you feel my love

~ Garth Brooks, To Make You Feel My Love

When guilt and worth were the words of the day.

FAÇADE Chapter 30

When I was lost, you took me home

You gave me hope when I was at the end

And turned my lies back into truth again

I was confused, you cleared my mind

I sold my soul, you bought it back for me

And held me up and gave me dignity

Somehow you needed me

You gave me strength to stand alone again

I needed you and you were there

~Anne Murray, You Needed Me

When our dinner plans were cut short.

FAÇADE Chapter 29

I'm scared, oh, so scared
But when you're near me
I feel like I'm standing with an army
When you say you love me
Know I love you more
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more

~Miley Cyrus, Adore You

When I needed every ounce of my patience.

FAÇADE Chapter 28

I can hear her heart beat for a thousand miles

And the heavens open every time she smiles

And when I come to her that's where I belong

Yet I'm running to her like a river's song

She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love

~ Van Morrison, Crazy Love

When I dated Bella Swan.

FAÇADE Chapter 27

I don't believe I'll fall from grace

Won't let the past decide my fate

Leave forgiveness in my wake

Take the love that I've embraced

Alive and burning brighter

~Halestorm, I Am The Fire

When we found our new normal.

FAÇADE Chapter 26

What if I said I was built on bricks of carelessness and crumbs

What if I said I would break your heart?

What if I said I have problems that made me mean?

Maybe you can see that I just may be too crazy to love

Maybe you can stop before you start

~Banks, You Should Know Where I’m Coming From

When five words out of Bella’s mouth fucked me up.

FAÇADE Chapter 25

I said I didn’t feel nothing, baby, but I lied

I almost cut a piece of myself for your life

I was just another pit stop ‘til you made up your mind

You just wasted my time

Falling for you was my mistake

~ The Weeknd, Call Out My Name

When the rest of my night went well.

FAÇADE Chapter 24

My soul surrenders and you bring my heart to its knees

And I know it's wrong and I know it's right

Even if I try to win the fight, my heart would overrule my mind

I'm not strong enough to stay away

In your presence my heart knows no shame

~Apocalyptica, Not Strong Enough

When the carefully crafted life I’d built went to shit. Again.

FAÇADE Chapter 23

I would trade, give away, all the words

That I saved in my heart, that I left unspoken

What hurts the most was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing what could've been

~Aaron Lewis, What Hurts the Most

How I became truly fulfilled in my life.

FAÇADE Chapter 22

Will the faithful be rewarded when we come to the end

Will I miss the final warning from the lie that I have lived

And I am not worthy, I am not worthy of this

Stay with me, don't let me go, because there's nothing left at all

I am still calling to you

~ Breaking Benjamin, Ashes of Eden

When I tried to pick up the pieces.

FAÇADE Chapter 21

Always told you not to love me

I got poison in my pocket, told you I was bad news

My demeanor made you wait, but the consequences stayed

I killed everything we were

It's been 27 hours since we even saw the sun

~Banks, 27 Hours

When I was made to pay for all that I had done.

FAÇADE Chapter 20

Just one more time before I go I'll let you know

That all this time I've been afraid, wouldn't let it show

Stars are only visible in darkness

The only sound is the battle cry

Nobody can save me now

It's do or die

~Imagine Dragons, Battle Cry

The one time Bella should have told me her plans.

EPOV