Right Where I Want to Be Futuretake

Sinuous movements, legs crossing one over the other as I stalk forward on fuck-me heels. Dipping low, a glimpse of cleavage and my lip between my teeth. Harsh breathing from the man in the chair bringing wetness between my legs. Circling, backing away before fingers can touch, thighs rubbing thighs. A sigh, a whisper of breath, a groan, and a tug. Swaying my hips and backing up, squatting before coming back up and slipping my bra straps off my shoulders, one at a time. Holding my breasts in my hands, I shimmy the cups of my bra down to my waist where I let it stay for now. Turning around, shimmying my ass closer and closer, knowing he can't touch. Resting my weight on his lap, feeling the hard bulge and thrilling that it's all for me.

Right Where I Want to Be Epilogue

Anytime I see you standing there

I go down upon my knees

I'm changing, I swore I'd never compromise

But you convinced me otherwise

I'll do anything you please

In all my life I've never found

What I couldn't resist, what I couldn't turn down

I could walk away from anyone I ever knew

But I can't walk away from you

I worked too hard to call my life my own

I made myself a world

And it’s worked so perfectly

But it's your world now, I can't refuse

I’ve never had so much to lose

I'm shameless

~Garth Brooks, Shameless

Three Months Later

EPOV

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 45

Edward attacks my neck with his lips and teeth, and my breathing is out of control. My hands are all over him; in his hair, gripping his neck, pushing at his clothes. He steps back from me, and I have to drop my limbs and lean against the wall as I pant. He kneels, and my heart jumps into my throat as he yanks my ankle up and over his shoulder. Edward buries his face in my pussy, and it’s been so long since he’s touched me that I cry out shamelessly. My hips rock against him, and he moves one hand to hold me against the wall, the other joining his tongue as he circles my clit. The acoustics in the bathroom are embarrassing as I shout and curse, begging to come. 

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 44

After saying goodbye to everyone, I make my way to the changing room and the shower. I can’t stand my sweaty self for one more second. I drop my bag near the entrance to the stall and think back to the day as I lather up.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 43

This song should not be played in public.

After laughing at me, Emmett actually makes himself useful and replenishes the refreshments. People have been coming and going all day long, and Rose and I have performed twice. My feet ache, my face hurts from smiling so much, and I’m closing in on exhaustion.

I’m as giddy as a schoolgirl with her first kiss.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 42

I turn and gape at him. “Your sister? You didn't tell me she was coming!”

“Surprise,” he mutters as she steps into the studio.

“Hi, and welcome to Cherry Bomb! I’m Rose, and this is Bella.” Leave it to Rose to just plow on.

“Hi.” She gives a little wave as she stares at me, then her eyes dart to Edward at my side. “I’m Alice.”

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 41

It’s opening day, and my stomach is in knots. I know it’ll be fine, but having the attention all on me is what makes me nervous. It feels like a heavy dose of irony, since I normally crave the feeling of all eyes on me. This is different. This is my make or break moment. Hopefully Rose will hog the spotlight and I won’t feel the need to throw up.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 40

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 39

True to his word, Edward tucks me into my bed with some Advil and bandages for my knuckles, plus a kiss to the forehead. He spends a few minutes in my bathroom before crawling into bed behind me, pulling my body close to his. I’m not completely stupid, so I’m wearing a nightgown and he's wearing his underwear and undershirt. Still, he’s semi hard as he holds his muscular frame against my soft curves, and I have to tamp down on my building desire. I really am exhausted.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 38

I regret the words as soon as they’re out of my mouth. “You know what? Never mind. The last thing we need is to confuse whatever this is with sex, the way we’ve been doing.”

Edward presses his forehead to mine, and it takes all I have not to just jump on him and do the naughty things that are crowded for space in my brain. We need to take things slowly, be normal and go on a date.

Don't we?

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 37

“Bella-"

“I thought I was a tough bitch that ran my life exactly how I wanted. I do what I want, when I want to, and nobody tells me I can't. When I decided it was you I wanted, I set about having you on my terms. When you got possessive, I thought ‘so what’? I can be possessive too. I can please you and still be myself. I pushed my feelings onto you, and I shouldn't have. So, it turns out I'm full of shit.” I feel like I’m rambling now, like I don’t even know what the fuck I’m talking about anymore. I have no experience with this.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 36

I’m standing out in the parking lot leaning up against the wall when the back door opens. I don’t have to turn to know who it is; I can smell his cologne, feel his presence. Like there’s an electromagnetic pulse beaming between us. I push off the wall and start walking, and I don’t stop when he falls into step with me. I walk out of the parking lot and down the street, and I don't have the first clue where I’m going or what I’m doing.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 35

“Apparently, neither do you. You called out more often than you were here, and now you quit without notice?”

“Now that you’ve summed up my month, let’s go. Hit me,” I egg him on so I can level him.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 34

Feeling inspired 'cause the tables have turned

Yeah, I'm on fire and I know that it burns

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 33

Everything is finally complete at the new place, including the sign reading Cherry Bomb. Rose, Emmett, and I worked our asses off to turn the dark and dusty space into a bright and gleaming pole dancing studio. The grand opening party is two days away, and Rose sent out a mass mailing of invitations to addresses in the surrounding zip codes. Tonight, though… tonight is for quitting the club.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 32

I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel

I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real

The needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

But I remember everything

I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar’s chair

Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair

What have I become, my sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away in the end

And you could have it all, my empire of dirt

I will let you down, I will make you hurt

~Johnny Cash, Hurt

“Edward?”

That voice was achingly familiar. She reminded him of his childhood; memories he needed to forget. He was steadily turning into their father, and he couldn't seem to stop himself. He'd ignored her calls for days, as usual, but something compelled him to finally pick up.

“Edward, it's Alice. Please say something.”

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 31

After too many sleepless nights worrying about it, I’ve convinced myself that Edward was not at the club. I don’t have time to worry about him and his issues, anyway. Rose and I have spent every daylight hour at our new home away from home, cleaning, drawing up ideas, and talking to suppliers. I’ve filed all of the paperwork with the city, after a long and irritating afternoon at the Seattle Municipal Center. I was lost on what all needed to be done and the woman was less than helpful.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 30

You're stubborn as they come, you'll never settle down

You'll always be the one who doesn't stick around

You make all the rules, you're set in your ways

You gotta have your freedom, you gotta have your space

One day you'll meet the girl you swore you'd never find

Start feeling things you never felt and spending all your time

Trying to figure out how she got this hold on you

And when you start to fall, you'll hold onto your pride

Start building up your walls and never let her get inside

You'll push her away 'cause that's all you know how to do

And then she'll leave and you won't beg her not to go

~Garth Brooks, Ask Me How I Know

“Edward, I need you. I love you.”

The words echoed in his head, taunting him. Nobody loved him; nobody but Alice, and he’d shut her out of his life years ago. Just like the selfish prick he knew he was, he’d done the same to Bella. He’d seen it in her eyes; the ease in which she’d slipped into his life and home. She wanted to make it permanent, but there was nothing permanent in his life.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 29

I go back to work the next day, mostly so that I don't have any idle hours in which to worry myself to death. Rose tells me she has a plan for our final dance when we quit, and we’re going to perform it together. She and I start working on choreography while we’re backstage, and I just know this will be talked about for a long time.

The realtor calls me the following day to tell me my offer was accepted. I bring Rose a giant bouquet of white roses to tell her thanks for her help, especially since she’s had to put up with my moodiness. Her squeal is loud enough to crack glass as she hugs me and tells me congrats over and over.

Right Where I Want to Be Chapter 28

I throw myself into looking for a place to buy for the dance studio. I call out sick to the club for three days in a row, ignoring the angry voicemails from Jacob. I can’t stomach the idea of being there, of picturing Edward there, or having other men watch me dance half naked. My heart is no longer in my job the way it used to be, which is all the more reason to find a prime location for my new venture.